I am planning to Share My Lack of Awesome with Jennifer @ Momma Made It Look Easy.
Without being able to use the home computer in the friendly confines of the newly painted back room. For internet. ATT has given as good as they get and is waiting until they get money to restore it. Hopefully, that will extend to the first of December. What is the nature of the snafu that I am buying paint, but not paying the bills?
Same as always. Total freaking incompetence.
Today, the freaking stands. No strike through.
I am a bit of a wool-gathering, rabbit-chaser. I started to say, "on this blog", but that would be less than completely accurate. However, all the musing, tongue-in-cheek ranting, indignant editorializing, tentative product reviews, and light storytelling have nicely distracted from the business business of reporting hard news from our corner of the world.
Since I have one less follower than before a blog break I took in the summer, anyone reading this will remember some early run downs of our economic circumstances. Circumstances remain much the same, although, We did get a couple of extra checks at end of July and end of August. They were sucked into the abyss. Groceries and Bills. The boss sat back and advised everyone that the best plan for the use of the first one was to bank it. My husband doesn't tell me this stuff. Another guy's wife does. She and I talk a couple times a year, and invariably, I find out stuff my husband didn't tell me because it would make me mad as a hatter (since we all know I am just a stitch or two short of a toboggan anyway).
About two weeks ago, I was in an email conversation with someone about cleaning house. I don't remember what all was at hand except having someone else do it. Suddenly, I realized, that is me. I am household help. Got pride issues? Start being someone's maid. Periodically, we have the chance to clean the office. When the person who normally cleans goes to...
We have a laptop that no one was using, so the little partner in the firm, the one who says, "Bloggers are morons",said, "Just take it." Big boss found out and said, "No, it's a loan."
It is slower than...I can't even think of anything slower than this computer and it sounds like a jet engine.. Any internet I am using is picking up someone's wifi connection. See, I told you; I suck.
I haven't posted because it is too hard. It takes forever. We have to scream to be heard over the computer, and I am discouraged. Don't get me wrong, I want to be in the conversation. I have been blessed beyond belief by the encouragement of your comments.
I can't see past this. I feel like if I were worth my salt, I would have fixed this by now. I feel like most readers would say, "Shut up and get a job." It isn't that simple. My degree is in education.
I am worried and I feel like it is all my fault. From the fact that I painted($25) and bought groceries and let the girls go to an activity, to the fact that I didn't pay AT&T and then inform them of the fact that they double billed me for my first month plus a bunch of equipment that they sent out that we didn't need. When I took it up with them, two (2) people said they would send out the label to send back the equipment. When the label was not forthcoming, I called them back and was informed there is no such label. AT THIS POINT, MY DSL WAS ALREADY SUSPENDED PENDING PAYMENT.
None of this is the root. The root is the fact that if we were prepared before this time and had been behaving like grown ups financially, we wouldn't just have a cushion, we would also have the insight and wisdom to know what to do about the future. That's just the way it works.
There you have it.